The Best Supplements for Mental Health.

The Best Supplements for Mental Health.

Lets face it: taking a prescribed pill never solved my problems. And I’m probably safe to say it never solved yours either. There are so many people out there battling mental health issues, and so few of them battle it in any other way besides going to the psychiatrist. We need to do do other things besides take a pill every day in order to feel balanced, healthy and mentally stable.

At least I do. (See my last post on mental health)

I remember when I was on medications from the doctor – it always started and ended the same way. I would start with one pill.. but then, side effects would come. I would have trouble sleeping. I would have trouble focusing, I would gain a ton of weight.

Problem after problem, doctors always gave me the same solution: Just take another pill to fix the side effects.

So what started as a “one pill a day recipe” turned into eight or nine or even ten.

And I never felt better.

A while back on my self love journey I decided it was time to do away with all the medication bull shit. I was so sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.  I was on a ton of different medications and nothing was working. In fact, I was only feeling worse.

So here’s what I decided: Taking a pill once a day is not solving my problems, so I need to do something different. I need to find new ways to treat my illness.

So I did. I started researching natural remedies to help combat anxiety and depression. And Soon – boom. I had my own special dose of pills to take every day – prescribed be me. And they were all 100 percent natural baby.

Guess what? My depression is none existent now. My anxiety is at bay and is easily regulated. My energy levels are coming back to normal (more on that in another post)

Full disclosure: Do not go off your medications unless consulting your doctor. Because I am not a doctor.

But I can tell you these are the suppliments that helped me feel more mentally stable and kept the brain fog at bay. And I take them religiously.

 

OMEGA THREE.   If you suffer from any type of emotional imbalance or mood swing issue, I highly recommend you get some type of Omega 3 Fish oil concentrate into your daily vitamin intake.  Numerous studies have shown that there is a link between anxietydepression and low blood levels of Omega 3 fats. The Brain is incredibly sensitive to cellular inflammation and one of the best ways to combat it is with omega 3. The brain is made up of two types of fatty acids and taking omega is such an added bonus to your routine. I found that just after a few weeks of taking omega 3 my mood balances out, and the highs and lows are much more balanced and calm. Solgar Omega-3 Fish Oil Concentrate Supplement, 240 Count

5-HTP MOOD SUPPORT  This is a natural supplement derived from seed pods of a plant (no not pot.) What you need to know is that this chemical directly converts to serotonin in the brain.  “Serotonin has many profoundly important functions, including a role in sleep, appetite, memory, learning, temperature regulation, mood, sexual behavior, cardiovascular function, muscle contraction, and endocrine regulation.”  I find that my mood is happier and more carefree when I take this supplement on a regular basis. 5-HTP CAN RESTORE SEROTONIN LEVELS AND HELP IMPROVE General mood, Depression, Anxiety, Insomnia, Weight loss, PMS, Chronic headaches7, Migraines”8, and Fibromyalgia. I call this Natures Prozac. Solgar, 5-HTP 100 mg, 90 Vegetable Capsules

 

TRUE CALM AMINO RELAXER: This is my new favorite supplement “blend. A mix of different vitamins, True Calm is mainly made up of different vitamin B’s. The first on the list: Niacin. Niacin (b-3) is a really important B vitamin. When we don’t have enough in our body we experience signs of depression, brain fog, and fatigue. B6 (also in the true calm amino relaxer) helps your body find hormone balance. Which is HUGE. Especially for people who struggle with anxiety. The third strongest vitamin in this blend is Magnesium, also known as the “most important female supplement.” Taking magnesium regularly can help with migraines, anxiety, Depression and PMS. Now Foods True Calm(tm) Amino Relaxer 90 Caps ( two-pack)

 

My Eating Disorder and the Valuable Lesson it Taught Me

My Eating Disorder and the Valuable Lesson it Taught Me

I never had a healthy relationship with food. Growing up in a big Italian family, food was always a center of any occasion. It was something we gathered around, something we joined together over. Something we used to celebrate and to show love. But as joyful as it sounds, growing up with a family that was very close, there was something eating away at my soul and separating me from truly celebrating those moments: My Eating Disorder.

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I never really knew I had an eating disorder. I couldn’t tell you how it started, or why it started, but I can tell you the moment I recognized my body as something that was bad and needed to change. I was Seven. Yep… Seven. My friend and I were talking about our new favorite dance classes. I told her I loved my Jazz class, and that Ballet was boring. Offended by my statement, my little seven year old friend told me “Well, you wouldn’t be good at ballet anyway.”

“You have to be able to suck in your stomach,” she said.

I challenged her … showing her I could force in all my breath– sucking in all the air I could muster…. “See! I Can!” I said with a smile. Then she told me what she was trying to say all along. “No. Not like that. I mean… you have to be skinny.”

My Eating Disorder And How it Evolved

Through the years that moment, my body perception haunted me. As I got older, I wasn’t really getting attention from boys like my friends were. I blamed this on my body. And I started to believe that maybe my friend all those years ago was right. After all, I did have a belly… and my mom did tell me to suck in my stomach when she took pictures of me and my sisters. “Maybe my weight is what is holding me back,” I thought.

I wasn’t incredibly heavy, but I wasn’t skinny like most of my friends either. It was kind of like I was in this middle ground… I was on the edge of fitting in somewhere — I just didn’t know where. And like most teenagers who suffer from an eating disorder, I believed that if I gained control of my weight, I would be able to find my place in life. I would get guys to like me. I would feel more confident. I would finally have everything a teenager girl wants: LOVE.

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So in an effort to want to find love, I started punishing myself. I cut my calories, kept journals to log every crumb of food that touched my mouth…. and every pound I lost or gained. But the extremes of my lifestyle – eating nothing and starving my body only made my weight bounce up and down from one extreme to another…  all the way into college. Gaining and binge eating, Losing and starving, it was like I was on this rollercoaster of extremes with no middle ground.

When I started to date this guy my first year of college, I felt like I was finally in a place where feeling good about myself was possible. I started to believe that maybe my weight didn’t really matter much. But then, our relationship turned ugly… he didn’t treat me right and totally destroyed my self-esteem.. Things got really unhealthy and abusive really fast. And as a result, life got pretty dark for me after that. I got really depressed because of the way I was being treated and my self-esteem totally fell through into the deep end. I felt out of control of my life being in an abusive relationship. So I decided it was time to switch schools and head back home. And as quickly as my eating disorder had left my mind, it entered back again full force.

I felt the lowest self-worth I ever felt… and thinking that there was something wrong with me that I needed to change, the only way I could feel like I had control over my life was by forcing my body to change… in any way possible.

I starved myself. I purged. I did everything in my control to keep food from entering my life. But my eating disorder was controlling me.  I started loosing my hair. I could feel my spine poking through my shirts. And I was cold… all the time.  I dropped to under 109 pounds, losing more than 70 pounds in four months. Sure my mom wasn’t telling me to suck in my stomach anymore…. but now she was telling me I looked like a skeleton. A ghost of my former self. And even then, I felt like it wasn’t enough. I was never going to be as thin or as beautiful as I needed to find the love I was looking for… because the truth is, I was looking in all the wrong places.

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The Road to Recovering from My Eating Disorder

The road to recovery was long. I gained the weight back and learned how to lose it all over again — this time, the healthy way.

The most important lesson I learned was that my body wasn’t the thing I needed to fix in order to feel good: It was my mind that needed the true repairing.

I started educating myself on emotional eating and discovered principles I now teach in my online courses— Learning to let go of my insecurities about being accomplished or “being good enough,” and learning to actually just go after what I wanted for myself… without the fear that I wasn’t worth it. I started going after my goals in a healthier way.  And I uncovered the emotional compass that led me to set goals that were achievable, goals that were confidence boosting, not destructively unhealthy.

And mainly… most importantly….I started treating my body like something that was a reflection of who I wanted to be — not something that was holding me back from being beautiful.

Slowly, I learned to let go of my eating disorder, and let in love.

 

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I’ve realized something looking back on those moments where my eating disorder was strongest…

I was fighting to change my body because I believed that the world around me would change if it did.  I thought maybe if I was skinnier I would feel better about who I was by fitting in and getting the attention and love I was seeking. I thought what would follow would be a sense of true beauty that would keep me from ever being harmed or hurt by others.

But why did I think other people were holding the key to my ability to feel good about myself?  Why did I believe changing my body would change the feelings I had toward myself — and my worth? Why couldn’t I just make effort to feel better about who I was in general?

My eating disorder taught me that finding love is about figuring out how to love yourself first. Feeling confident doesn’t come from other people. Feeling beautiful never follows any physical transformation unless you yourself embark on the emotional journey required to get there.

To all the girls out there struggling to find the body they are looking for — the body they think will bring them amazing love, or a larger amount of happiness than they already have…. the key to changing everything, starts within you…. 

I’m Losing 40 Pounds. – Day 1

I’m Losing 40 Pounds. – Day 1

So excited about this. But also freaking out scared as hell to share this with all of you. Today is the start of a beautiful transformation.

Running my business coaching and What is Perfection LLC. has been amazing. I love it so much that I actually started prioritizing it way too much last year. So much so that my health and wellness goals fell on the back burner.

In 12 months I went from 132 pounds to 172. No joke. Realness. I seriously did that. It was a choice I made – and the consequences were serious: No bras or pants fit me anymore.

I was focused on caring for my clients and doing the best I could for them that I actually stopped caring for myself.

In the last year I have gained close to 40 pounds.  It hurts to say, and for a while I felt like I failed myself – but then I realized – this is in fact an amazing opportunity.

“I have this beautiful platform that inspires others and my skills as a coach – I am going to combined them to celebrate this opportunity! What if I documented my journey in a real and raw way to share this with the world? It would inspire others to make their lives better too! ”

Boom. And Idea was born.

Today is  day one: My journey to lose 40 Pounds.  I am so excited (and slightly terrified) to share it with all of you.

The truth is, I am not insecure about my weight. Sure I want to change it and yes it make me frustrated and uncomfortable to be this heavy, but the reality is that I still love myself a great deal. My weight is not a score card for the amount of worth I put in myself.

My self love is totally there – and that’s why I want to show you all that you can actually lose weight and transform your body without shaming it.

Yes.  You can lose weight from a place of love and happiness and not a place of shame and anger.

Everything you need to know: (feel free to follow these prompts on your own journey)

My Physical Goal: Lose 40 Pounds

My Deadline: July 20TH

 

My Health Reasons for losing this weight:  I don’t feel comfortable. I am over tired. I am stressed. My body feels pain in weird places it never used to. And I don’t sleep well (but am always tired.)

My Emotional Reasons for losing this weight:  I don’t feel like my body represents the love I truly have for myself, and I want it to. I also feel like i deserve to feel good in my skin and not feel “less than I deserve.” I know that my body deserves better and I deserve better and I want this change.

Why Must This Change Now: Because I have two years of my twenties left and I need to make the most of it. Because my business has massively leveled up and I want my body to level up with it. Because If I don’t make this change now my relationship will not be the way it deserves to be, my career will not be the way I want it to be and I know I deserve better.

What I WILL Be Doing on this Journey:

-Drinking Massive amounts of water.

-Taking supplements.

-Eating a mostly vegan diet.

– Eating a large amount of vegetables.

-Meditating Everyday

-Listening to my body

-Practicing Yoga.

-Sleeping 8 Hours at least.

-Journaling every day.

-Meal Prepping *since healthy foods need to be convenient for me since I am always on the go)

What I WILL NOT Be Doing on this Journey:

Count calories

Measure portions (I am going to listen to my body instead)

DrinkAlcohol more than 1x a week.

Follow a specific workout plan

See exercise as punishment

See healthy eating as punishment

Put myself on the back burner

Eat processed foods

These are the rules I am starting with – but the rules may change. I never live my life black and white so my new healthy lifestyle won’t be either. I need to listen to my gut and do what feels right. And as of now, this feels pretty darn good to write out.

 

But who knows. It may change later on. What matters is that I am going to make this happen!

 

 

 

How I Decorate my Workspace to Reduce Stress

How I Decorate my Workspace to Reduce Stress

My office space is my safe haven. And seriously I am so excited to share it with all of you today. This past weekend Matt and I took some time really cleaning out my special work environment (well I cleaned and he put some shelves up for me.)

Keeping an office space stress free, calm and collected is so super important to me. Not only because I love to stay organized and enjoy decorating – but because my overall sanity during work hours totally feeds off the energy in the room – when the room is clear and calm, so am I.

So Yay! time to share the WIP office space! Learn how I keep peace and calm vibes in my work environment <3

 

First and foremost, I always make sure that everything has a space and a place.

Things I don’t use often get put in organizing boxes underneath the desk (I got mine at Michaels) and things I don’t use or that don’t serve a purpose get removed from the space entirely.

Just like I am working with a purpose, it is important that everything in my office environment has a purpose too. So I make sure to store away the junk and the things I don’t need in a totally separate space. If I don’t use it, I totally lose it. (kind of my rule for what I keep in the office.) If it doesn’t inspire me, motivate me or make me happy, I get rid of it.

Keep things on the top desk organized, clear and simple. 

When it comes to what stays on my desk, I have a rule – during the day, my desk can be as cluttered and crazy as it naturally needs to be. But every night, everything goes back in it’s place. It makes me feel energized and inspired the minute I walk into the room the next day – knowing that I have a clean fresh start is a definite plus.

 

Every little thing has a storage place. 

Little things get stored away in cute bags along my desk – this case holds all my pens. I have a separate one for my essential oils and electronic cords too. I keep them away and pull them out when necessary. I rather take time giving everything on my desk a home rather than spend countless hours trying to find shit when I need it.

I love this shelf Matt installed for me. These are my favorite headphones by urban ears. Hanging them up makes me so happy because I don’t have to see the cords dangling all over the place on my desk. Lots of shelving is necessary.

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2. color schemes

3. peaceful vibes. 

ALL MUSTS. For every area of the house. 

This little corner in my office sums up all of that. The ottoman is great for when clients come and visit and it opens up to store my extra camera equipment. And the shelves and wall art just make me feel so inspired and peaceful.

It’s my favorite piece of artwork. I got it off amazon prime. Literally drooling over it. This is my little meditation corner.

When it comes to how I decorate – I make sure to have a lot of meaningful inspiration and positivity going on. Plus my plants bring a life energy into the room that I love.

I symbolically turn on the

 

 

I also make sure to have a morning routine of “starting my day” by turning my salt lamp on. Working from home, knowing when the day starts and the day ends can be a blurry concept. I like knowing that when the light goes on “it’s time work,” and when the light goes off “it’s time to  rest.”

Oh.. and yes.. my WIP Color scheme is EVERYWHERE.

 

 

Loved sharing this with you guys! More house pictures to come of course! < 3 <3

 

How I Take Care of My Mental Illness

How I Take Care of My Mental Illness

My mental health is legit my main priority. I’m not joking. It is at the top of my list. Above working out, above eating healthy, above my boyfriend and yes, even above the show This is Us (which I am for reals obsessed with.)

Mental health and living in a balanced emotional state is the most important thing in the world to me. If you’ve listened to my podcast or know anything about the life journey that led me to become a breakthrough coach and the founder of WIP, you know that I had a rocky past when it comes to finding emotional balance.

Suicide attempts, depression, BPD, and Bi-Polar disorder diagnosis. Seriously.. my mental health was a serious struggle. And truthfully, for a long time I felt branded by that. In a bad way. So many people who have diagnosis feel that way. I know I’m not alone.

But a few weeks ago I opened up about my story more in Friday’s Real Deal Post – and I shared some of my most recent discoveries and battles with feeling emotionally clear and happy.

I have it down to a system now. Whenever I feel off, I can notice it, recognize it and really snap myself back into that healthy clear minded state. Being in-tune with my body and mind has drastically changed my life. And anyone can do it.

In case you are wondering – my body does not absorb serotonin the way it is supposed to (serotonin is that happy feel good vibe hormone that makes you feel like a unicorn.) Yeah… that’s my deal.

It took me years to master the art of feeling happy, getting balanced and clearing out the mind clutter.  And seriously… feeling happy and balanced should never take someone years to master. It’s something we all deserve to feel every day.

So today I thought I would jut take some space on the WIP blog to share my top tips for treating my mental illness. How I stay mentally balanced and clear every day. – a little glimpse inside my lifestyle routine for taking care of my mind.

 

 

How I Treat My Mental Illness – Natural Steps to Healing Your Mind

I journal every single day.

A big part of being emotionally off balance – is that once you teeter into sadness land, it is really easy to experience what I call “the snowball effect.” One bad thought turns into a million bad thoughts. Suddenly your little baby snowflake problem has turned into this big massive giant snowball that is rolling down the hill into sadness land. Get my point?

Well this is why I journal. Practicing gratitude exercises and keeping a notebook where I can log track and monitor how I am feeling is the biggest freaking game changer for my life. Notebooks are my favorite. I am obsessed. Which is probably why I published my workbook series on Amazon – because i freaking love journaling. Being able to write down how I am feeling slows down the thoughts in my mind and allow me to really craft the art of thinking clearly. It’s amazing.

I take a massive amount of supplements.

In my last post on mental illness (the one I linked to in the top of this article) I shared some of my supplements. I take True Calm herbal pills to help with anxiety.  I take fish oil daily because omega 3 is so so great for your mind. And I take b12 because I don’t eat a lot of meat. When I take supplements, I take the same dose every day and I remain really adamant about never skipping.

I limit processed foods in my diet.

Certain things trigger my depression and “in a funk” attitude. Often times if I am eating too many processed foods, I find that falling into that slump happens way more… so I try my best to avoid processed foods, meat with hormones or anything with too many ingredients I can’t pronounce. If I can’t say it, I try not to eat it.

I make sure I exercise every day.

“Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. Happy people just don’t shoot their husbands.”  Elle Woods, Legally Blonde. Enough said.

I don’t stay up late and focus on making sure I get at least 8 hours of sleep.

So yeah. I am a baby grandma. Right now, I go to bed at 8PM and let my body naturally wake up when it feels ready to. I stay up later in the summer, because the sun is out longer and it just feels natural to me. Keeping my sleep schedule consistent with the rise and fall of the sun actually helps me feel more balanced and align with my energy and mood. It makes sense. Seasonal depression is a thing guys.

I share how I am feeling regularly with someone who I trust.

Matt is my GO TO human being. The minute I feel off, I talk to him about it. I express how I am feeling. Why do I do this? I don’t do it because I need something from him. I actually do it because sharing how I feel forces me to put words to what it is I am experiencing internally.. It helps me develop a language for expressing what certain moods mean to me.

“I’m feeling off,” vs. “I’m feeling really disassociated,”

“I’m in a funk,” vs. “I feel super out of it,”

Different feelings mean different things. And being able to really try to describe my emotions in some other way than “I am sad,” has helped me really recognize when there is a problem.

I keep a list of warning signs.

Over the years I have become really away of the warning signs. The “heads up something isn’t right,” warning signs. If my handwriting is different, or if my sleep pattern suddenly gets sporadic and off – or even if I suddenly feel like i don’t want to shower or do chores around the house – I know that my anxiety and depression is about to go haywire.

Being away of how your mental illness manifests in the real world is huge. It allows you to nip things in the butt the minute you notice something isn’t right.

I don’t ever ignore my illness.

When something is wrong, I take a time out. I cancel plans, I rearrange my schedule, I even disconnect from social media. I seriously do whatever it takes to show my mind that I love it, I care about it, and that I am willing to help it heal. The minute I need a bit of a mental break, I stop doing things for others and focus on healing. I take long bubble baths, I meditate, I journal, I go for a long walk, or I lay in bed and sleep all day if that is what I need.

If my mind is telling me to do it. I listen.

xoxox

 

The Real Deal:  My Mental Illness

The Real Deal: My Mental Illness

This is probably one of the hardest blog posts I’ve ever written. Not because I’m scared of putting myself out there or anything like that, but because this is a really hard topic to write about.

There is so much to say.

And so many ways to say it.

And most importantly, I don’t want to say any of it wrong.

So let me just lay down some ground rules before you read this:

1. I am not a mental health professional. Don’t read this post thinking that I am your new meds expert.

2. What works for me may not work for you. Don’t read this post thinking that I am acting like I know everything. I know everyone is different.

3.Please don’t judge my raw vulnerability. This is who I am. This is a part of my narrative. And I refuse to hide it.

Okay. Ready? here we go.

For a long time I struggled with sharing this piece of my life…

Even before the blog. I felt really insecure about having a “mood disorder.” or a “mental illness.” I worried people wouldn’t accept me for it, or that they would look at me differently because of it. Especially because years ago I had attempted suicide. I wasn’t one of those “just a little sad and grumpy” people – I was one of those people that really wanted to die. The fact that my illness was so serious, it made me scared to share it. I didn’t want peers to think they had to censor themselves around me, and I didn’t want my colleagues to know that I was “one of those people who didn’t have their shit together.” And while that was a total B.S. limiting belief of mine – It still affected a lot of my decisions in life and how I lived it. And most importantly, denying my illness really impacted how I felt about myself.

“You need to hide this part of who you are, because this is weird. And you don’t want people to think you’re weird. Or even worse: crazy.”

So for a while, I pretended it wasn’t real.

My illness is real.. and that’s pretty much all I know….

Pretending it wasn’t there only made things worse. When I ignored it, I went on and off medication. I felt ashamed by it. And stopping and starting regimens made me sick, suicidal and really out of my element. Even to this day “accepting my condition” is something I struggle with.

I take medicine for a while, feel really good, and then decide, “f-this. I don’t need meds.” A few days later I am a psychotic mess. That’s just how it is.

It’s been a long time since that has happened.. but a few weeks ago I ran out of my meds.. and BOOM. Disaster.

Having moments like that makes me feel so ashamed. I am a life coach – and I don’t have my shit together 100 percent of the time guys.

I have an illness. And that doesn’t make me less of a human being. I can’t ignore that I have it.

But I cannot tell you what I have, because the truth is I have no fucking clue. I have been diagnosed so many times in my life. Today I believe that being “diagnosed” is just a ploy for doctors to get your insurance company to approve medications.

Having a label didn’t do anything for me. It only made me feel more lost in the cycle of prescription drugs. But what I realized (and even talk about in my podcast ) is that having a label doesn’t solve any problems. I don’t have to define my illness to know that it is a serious problem area in my life that needs my undivided attention.

So when someone asks me “what I have,” this is my response:

My brain does not absorb serotonin the way a normal brain does. And for that, I need medication. 

Who knows how this started. I will never know. Some doctors tell me I was born this way. Other doctors have told me that when you have a traumatic experience at a very young age, sometimes your brain can actually change itself – which would make sense, since I was raped and assaulted in my teenage yeas. But just like I don’t focus on finding a label for my illness, I also stopped trying to figure out what caused it. So that I could focus on the much more important issue: Finding the right treatment.

Because Mental Illness Sucks….and so does Big Pharma.

I have been struggling with finding the right medication regimen for 10 years. Yes. 10 fucking years. When I was first diagnosed, doctors didn’t know about the sexual trauma I experienced, so they used what little information they had to diagnose me.

“She is up, she is down, she is bipolar.”

It pretty much took them all of five minutes to come up with that one.

Ever since then, I’ve been struggling to “feel balanced” with the “medication that works.”

Because all of them have side effects.

I’ve been on medications that made me sleep 16 hours a day.

I’ve taken pills that made me walk around like a zombie.

I was once on a regimen that was known to cause liver damage, so I needed to get blood work every few months.

Meds that made me gain 60 pounds

Meds that made me develop an eating disorder.

And my favorite – I was once on a medication that gave me a serious facial tic. Yeah. That was super fun.

I’ve tried them all…  Big Pharma is my worst enemy.

For so long I was conditioned to think that just by taking a pill I could solve all of my problems.. when in fact, often times, taking one pill caused me six other problems that I needed more pills to fix.

I hated it.

Pills solve problems? That can’t be more farther from the truth in my life.

New Prescriptions don’t solve problems… PEOPLE do….

One of the biggest game changers in my life was deciding that I was going to control my mental illness. I wasn’t going to rely on a pill to do it for me. I make sure not to have too much coffee after a certain time (to avoid mania) I stay away from alcohol as best possible. I take supplements (the new ones I’m trying are pictured here – thanks Angie for the recommendations) and I practice meditation and self reflection every single day.

I am the person who has to live with this rollercoaster mind- so I can’t rely on a pill to magically solve my problems. I need to take care of myself.

If you don’t have a mental illness, here’s what you need to know….

When your friend tells you “I am feeling sad today,” it is not sadness the way you know it to be. It is on a whole other level that you probably cannot even imagine even if you tried. If your friend isn’t functioning well, telling her “just get out of bed and go do something,” is not going to encourage her to feel better. And asking her “What’s wrong,” is a question that will sometimes go unanswered… because she doesn’t even know how to answer it when she tries to ask herself.

Still don’t get it? Listen to this chicken cutlet story….

One time, when I was in depression mode, I remember sitting at the dinner table with my parents staring at my plate. I had a chicken cutlet on it. There was a knife and fork on the side of the plate, and in order to eat my dinner, I had to cut the chicken cutlet. Seems simple right? No way. I was so emotionally unstable that I felt like I was dying. I was so overwhelmed and in complete emotional breakdown mode  that I could not for the life of me figure out how to do it. Yes. I couldn’t figure out how to fucking cut a chicken cutlet to eat it. I broke down crying. My mom had to cut my food for me. I was twenty three years old.

This is not a joke people. Depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, panic attacks – these are real scary serious things. When left untreated they are debilitating.

So take mental illness seriously. Treat it with kindness. Make your mental health a priority.

And stop pretending it doesn’t exist.


P.S. these are vitamins I am taking to help with brain function.

Solgar Omega-3 Fish Oil Concentrate Supplement, 240 Count

Solgar, 5-HTP 100 mg, 90 Vegetable Capsules

Now Foods True Calm(tm) Amino Relaxer 90 Caps ( two-pack)

Now Foods B-12 2000mcg, 100-Count